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Monday, April 30, 2007

lalala... one more paper to go!

and hohoho... i got your present. go ahead and ask me what is it, but i wont tell you. sorry! blehx!

o god!
i want to go out. please grant me a pair of wings.
argh!

those days.

i remember i used to...

...start my day by unlocking the library door for you.
...stand in one corner singing national anthem with you.
...complain to you about my classes.
...bitch with you.
...view others' friendster with you.
...laugh hard at you for sleeping under the 'ahem'.
...have coffee break with you and sometimes 'puffing' break.
...eat lunch with you.
...come earlier to mark at your neighbouring table.
...dump my books on your table.
...eat your digestive biscuits.
...borrow your sweater.

haha...

i still got 3 more papers to go. (: i can't wait for 2nd may to come.

i don't know if i am feeling any better. yes, this half of me says:"yes, i am fine and happy as usual." but the other half of me just contradicts. i may look and talk like usual but i keep having this thought in me which i can't really stand it. argh!

"what do you want?"
i have been asking this question many many times. of course, you would give me the same answer if i were to ask you again. am i right?

yes, it was uncertain at first. however, i am or rather i was confident abt things, nah, i doubt so now. that night, i was thinking to myself, i have done so much, is it still insufficient? what i have done so far, somehow have gone to waste.

i wanted to care lesser, but i simply can't.
let me know that it is going to be serious because it takes two hands to clap.

i need a break.

i was feeling so stressed up today while studying. i got this very disguested feeling towards exams. i know very well that i am not going to do well for this coming paper, but i just cant escape from it. argh. monday's a chinese literature paper, and frankly speaking, i hate literature to the core. yucks.

i was near to tears earlier on while on the way back from raffles city. sighs. i am stressed!

i hope this will be over soon.

argh.
exams! i hate it lo!
my freaking last paper is on the 2nd may. its full of shit.

i had a awesome breakfast days back.
omelette.
ham.
tomato.

breakfast again? (:

11:29 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

i met up with cheng zhi earlier on for a dinner. we ate at 'tao' restaurant at paradise centre. i thought it was a cool restaurant, because we just need to pay $28.80++ to enjoy an 8-course meal. the food was good, and good companion too. haha.

i realised how important timing is. if timing is wrong for each other, nothing can work out. i thought of this in the midst of my shower. haha. come to think of it, me and cz were alright, no major dispute or whatsoever, but in the end we still didnt work out. hmm... so i came to a conclusion that timing is very important. (:

random, i know. haha.

anyway, i had fun. (:

off.

11:55 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007

i just recovered from multiple ulcers. i had more than 10 ulcers in my mouth days ago. it simply sucks. you will never understand the pain i went through. haha. i endured for 2 days and i couldnt take it anymore, so i decided to go and see a doctor. guess what! the doctor actually burnt my ulcers. just to clarify, the doctor didnt use fire to burn. he used iodine, the solution we used in secondary school to test for starch. haha. i didnt know iodine has got such use. anyway, the doctor said that it is the fastest way for my ulcers to heal. and it was true. miracle! i was fine after the burning but my lips felt numb after that. i guess it was worth it somehow, at least i could eat properly after that. (:

10:54 PM

Monday, April 02, 2007

i just realised how vulnerable a friendship can be sometimes. you might be talking to the person at this very moment, and lost this so-called friend of yours the very next day.

now i wonder the definition of 'friends'. according to the dictionary, it says, "a person one knows and likes." yah right! it is not that simple, people. i feel a friend must be someone whom you trust also and you are willing to share things with. and of course, he or she can tell you about your faults without having to hesitate. am i right to say these? my girls will know this. haha.

anyway, i felt upset about what had happened recently, to think, i felt that its no longer worth it.

yah, i was wrong but i dont think theres a need for this to happen. you can say that i was wrong, please think carefully.

since when you ever feel that project discussions are useful?
answer: never.

i worked with you and i know. you always think that you are the greatest, full of ideas, and comments. and other people are worse off. am i right to say so? this isnt the first project you felt so, the many ones we did together too.

looks like you got a problem there yourself.

i guess you need to look at how you are going to manage your own emotions.

to be frank, what you told me, just made me upset for awhile. it is not going to affect me. to be frank, please go ahead to look for other project mates. i dont want to be unhappy. yes, selfish me. and to be frank, i dont want to work with you not anymore.

this is me. take it or leave it. i am not going to change for anyone. if i suffer, i will bear the consequences.

4:33 PM

i just finished a test. horray! for the moment. haha. exams are coming. ):

anyway, the head of chinese department came after my test. he was really very stern when he came in. guess what! the whole bunch of chinese students got scolded or rather warnings from him. it was because someone in class got caught cheating in a test last week. therefore, he came to warn us about it. and he told us that one of us wrote a complain letter to the management of NIE. the letter said that chinese department did not handle the case well and it was unfair to the rest of the students. the person who wrote the letter did not disclose his identity.

i wonder who the person was. if he got the gut to write a letter to the management then why not disclose his identity. CHICKEN! i guess he is probably worried that his results will suffer if he were to disclose his identity. i feel sad for him. sighs.

yah, it was wrong for that person to cheat, but i feel that the person who complaint has got nothing to do seriously. whats on his mind man? complaining will not benefit the person, probably to him, one less competitor. is it so competitive that he need to complain and want the school to take actions against the 'cheater'? and so he has one competitor down. is there a need? i only got one word to describe the person who actually complaint, 'CHILDISH!'

if that complain bugger got to read this, please go and reflect, because complaining will not help you get better grades!

3:47 PM